"Of course I wanna fucking help her" Sammy shouted back at Jackie, not being thrown off by the sudden jerking of the car, "You think I'm not worried about them? Yeah, my methods are shitty, I get that, but Raven's a friend of mine too. And I'm worried about that kid too. I don't know him, but fuck, I know no child should be dealing with the shit that we witnessed. Mason and Raven are fucking adults and they can't even handle it. I just.... I just...."
Sammy said, biting her lip again as she sat down in the seat, putting her hand on her face as she responded, "Mason was there for me when no one else was. And I've always respected him for that. And when shit got worse for him, I wanted to protect him. When his mom was arrested for killing his dad, he was called a murderer's son and everyone in that shithole town said he'd grow up to be the same. He was too nice to protect himself. Even when kids would beat his ass for it, he'd just stand there and take it. He thought he deserved it. So yeah, of course I worry about him. I worry that he'll assume he deserves the suffering he gets and gets himself killed. Mason is just... Too damn friendly for his own good, and it pisses me off. But I want him to help himself. I want him to get stronger, but it's just... I worry that him learning that stuff will push him to do something that will result in him getting killed. He would do it, I know he would. That's why I'm worried that if he does get stronger, he'll use it to go against something he doesn't understand "
As Sammy spoke, tears once again welled up in her eyes, falling onto the palm of her hands, but she tried her best not to show them. "But... Of course he's the only one that can do something about it. I know that, dammit. I know all of this. I know that I'm doing nothing but getting in the way, and I know that I'm just making excuses, but... I still hate it. I hate that it had to be him. I hate that this will lead him to do something stupid. I hate that all these people are suffering and all I can think of is how he needs to just be away from all this. That's why I don't want you getting angry at him. He fucks up, but he's got good intentions. He means well, and he doesn't want people to get hurt. But me... I'm fucking selfish."
Sammy sat there once again, wiping the tears from her eyes, yet the didn't stop welling up and falling once more, no matter how much she tried, "I'm trying to stay happy, trying my best to keep everyone's spirits up and all I do is fuck it up with my own selfishness. I want to help Mason and Raven and you, but I just can't. I'm just a fucking tag-a-long. I can't do magic, I can't help them focus, I can't even help one of my friends when they're in a state like this." Sammy responded, continuing to wipe the tears from her eyes, "Yeah, I get it. Crying over shit like this and feeling sorry for myself. I'm really pathetic, I get it. Don't gotta tell me that"
Sammy said, biting her lip again as she sat down in the seat, putting her hand on her face as she responded, "Mason was there for me when no one else was. And I've always respected him for that. And when shit got worse for him, I wanted to protect him. When his mom was arrested for killing his dad, he was called a murderer's son and everyone in that shithole town said he'd grow up to be the same. He was too nice to protect himself. Even when kids would beat his ass for it, he'd just stand there and take it. He thought he deserved it. So yeah, of course I worry about him. I worry that he'll assume he deserves the suffering he gets and gets himself killed. Mason is just... Too damn friendly for his own good, and it pisses me off. But I want him to help himself. I want him to get stronger, but it's just... I worry that him learning that stuff will push him to do something that will result in him getting killed. He would do it, I know he would. That's why I'm worried that if he does get stronger, he'll use it to go against something he doesn't understand "
As Sammy spoke, tears once again welled up in her eyes, falling onto the palm of her hands, but she tried her best not to show them. "But... Of course he's the only one that can do something about it. I know that, dammit. I know all of this. I know that I'm doing nothing but getting in the way, and I know that I'm just making excuses, but... I still hate it. I hate that it had to be him. I hate that this will lead him to do something stupid. I hate that all these people are suffering and all I can think of is how he needs to just be away from all this. That's why I don't want you getting angry at him. He fucks up, but he's got good intentions. He means well, and he doesn't want people to get hurt. But me... I'm fucking selfish."
Sammy sat there once again, wiping the tears from her eyes, yet the didn't stop welling up and falling once more, no matter how much she tried, "I'm trying to stay happy, trying my best to keep everyone's spirits up and all I do is fuck it up with my own selfishness. I want to help Mason and Raven and you, but I just can't. I'm just a fucking tag-a-long. I can't do magic, I can't help them focus, I can't even help one of my friends when they're in a state like this." Sammy responded, continuing to wipe the tears from her eyes, "Yeah, I get it. Crying over shit like this and feeling sorry for myself. I'm really pathetic, I get it. Don't gotta tell me that"
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